It really makes me wonder

It has been difficult the last few weeks for me.. Uhmm, my brain hit something.. A speed bump? (I think).. I've been deciding on whether I should leave my existing employment and I just finally decided last night to demit. Aint that easy..

Last Friday I have informed my supervisor (I'm not sure if this what pushed her to assign me here in far away land Cavite..Nye!) and I couldn't care less of her reaction or non-reaction whatsover. Anyway, nobody (well... Orlando Bloom perhaps) on earth can stop me! I know some people would say, "you wont be staying too long anyways, why not wait?"... *sighhh*... I can't take the imperativeness anymore..

I spent the weeknights lying in bed after distressing work, staring at the ceiling or walls while eating or after, wallowing in grief and frustration. I guess having "IT ENDS TONIGHT" by All American Rejects on repeat was not gonna help my current psychological mode..