Changes

I have been bothered by this saying for a long time already. But now, it really hit me. And I think that I just have to accept the fact that you really cant please everybody. The intensity of how this hit me can be compared to getting run over by a 10 wheeler truck over and over. I have been so blinded by the facade of a perfect society. I've come to the realization that no matter how hard you try to fit in, there will always come a time wherein you will be judged, there will always be a point wherein you will just have to "play safe". Like I said, you really cant please everybody. Honestly, it sucks but this is life, and reality check.. That's the way it is.. I'm the type of person who wants to make people happy. Sometimes, I shrug my problems just to help a friend, sometimes I dont even show people that I have problems. One thing I've learned is not to talk about your problems with certain people because you become their source of strength whenever they are down. I go out of my way just to help people in need, even though it mean sacrificing something. I try not to think of myself anymore but now, I've realized that I feel this way because I care too much about other people w/o giving anything for myself. I think of how they think about me, I feel how they feel about me.. I know, I can't change overnight but after these realizations hit me, i swore to myself. IM GONNA CHANGE NOW. I WILL TRY.. Before it is too late..